New Outlook

Autism is draining. I have hit a wall. Diets, therapies, school, meetings, IEPs, IFSPs, Dan! doctors, regular pediatricians, coordinators,psychologists, support groups not to mention the compliance, sensory and behavior issues that come with autism. I am torn between focusing so much on autism and burning out and feeling like I have a small amount of time to recover my son and I HAVE to focus on autism. The older he gets the more reality and fear set in. Zeus and I have talked and we have accepted alot of traits of autism. We know Mickey may not be a social butterfly. He may still enjoy organizing and lining things up. He might still spin on occasion. He may shriek and flap when he gets excited. He may have no interest or motivation to do things most kids enjoy. So what if he beats to a different drummer. The things we feel are crucial are his speech and feeling comfortable in this world. I want him to grow up and be able to communicate, hold a job in what ever he is interested in and one day find a wife to share his life with. We envision him being similar to his dad. His dad is a loner, and isn’t interested in what most people are and is overall a quiet person. If that is how Mickey is than we can accept that. What I can’t accept is any physical or mental disability caused by the vaccines or other toxins in his body. Accepting Mickey’s personality is one thing but I need to be sure that I am dealing with his personality and not the posion in his body. Now is the time we move beyond the diet and start more aggressive treatments. We wil start Valtrex and Homeopathic nosode treatments. Chelation is a last resort and we will cross that bridge when we get to it. We also have an opportunity to try HBOT for free so we will do that sometime this month. I love my son so much. I just want to make sure I am doing everything possible to give him his life back. As for Minnie, she is doing AWESOME!!! She is talking up a storm and is about equally verbal to Mickey. She is quirky and cute and full of so much energy and spunk. She just cracks up everyone who sees her. I often hear she has a ton of personality for such a little body. Her EI therapist suggested we get her in commercials! She is excelling in speech, fine motor and Early intervention. We are getting better with socializing and sensory issues but she still needs help with Gross Motor and Physical Therapy. I bought her some classic baby walking shoes (the white leather ankle shoes) and they help ALOT! It cut her falling down by 50%. She has even been trying to jump lately. I am really not to worried about her anymore. She still has digestive and allergy problems so she will remain on the SCD diet until we can help her with that but otherwise she is great. We have noticed she doesn’t show interest in toys or creative play. She would rather read books, look at flash cards or do some form of art such as painting, crayons, playdoh or stickers. She LOVES art! Alot of kids on the spectrum show unusual abilities in art so maybe this will be Minnies area of talent. She also loves music, singing and dancing. Her therapist finds it a bit unusual that she isn’t interested in toys. She can get her to play a little bit with some toys with ALOT of coersion. Overall, her therapist finds it unsusual but said it could be a good thing, maybe her interest just isn’t in toys but rather in art and books. So after thinking about things, I have decided my kids might always be a bit different but that can be a good thing. The only real concern I have now is cleaning out the toxins and viruses from there bodies and getting them fully talking. Everything else is livable. Even the compliance and behavior problems can be tolerated. My kids are strong willed and spirited. It may be challening at times but these can be great attributes when they are older. I have realized I don’t need, want or expect my kids to fit in a certain box. With autism comes some quirks and that is ok with me.